Guess Who I Wanted To Look Like

Updated: Apr 21




Have you ever wanted to look like someone else?


I did


in High School


and Some Years After




I was somewhat anorexic in High School


Probably


Before it had an official name



When I was in high school i weighed 108 pounds

And was obsessed about being thin


I did eat a lot of junk food

And not much real food

Always thinking about my weight


Why did I think I had to be super skinny?

Influence from the outer world

Friends, commercials, magazines, tv


I didn't have confidence in myself

And looked outward for guidance and approval

At the time, late 70's, early 80's - the thinner the better


I also thought that if I looked good

People would like me

Specifically, boys


I would spend an hour to get ready to go out

Maybe even longer

Perfectly curled hair

Perfect makeup

Perfect outfit (I didn't have many, but it had to look good)



Have you had thoughts like this?




Brooke Shields


That's my girl


That's who I wanted to look like in high school

The perfect all-American girl

Long brown hair, blue eyes, full lips

Thick eyebrows


Instead of me

Half Asian . Half Hillbilly


I would bite my upper lip

Hoping that it would puff up and look more like Brooke's lips, lol




Today


Today I can admire a pretty girl or handsome man

And not want to look like them


I love the freckles on my face that come out with the sun

My long dark hair

Somewhat exotic half asian eyes

Olive skin

Sometimes I think I look pretty

Other times, just okay







I'm not thin and lean as I was most of my life

And do want to lose a few pounds

At the same time I want to enjoy myself

And eat what I want

And eat good food


Mostly I love that we're all unique

All beautiful in our own special way

And realize the intensity of that beauty

Shines from within




Kim


One of the current biggest influencer's is Kim Kardashian


I see many Kim's walking around and on social media

Same thick black eyebrows

Same big eyelashes

Same big boobs and butt


I get it


Now as an old-er wiser woman

My eyes are wide open

Of what's important

What's beautiful

In the World

Each of us in our own unique way



Larleen's Kim Tutorial






Embrace

Our UNIQUE BEAUTIFUL SELVES



It's all about love

And that love begins with you

Once you Love you,

All of you,

Nothing can stop you



That's where the magic happens



Imagine a world

Where we all


ACCEPT

EMBRACE

LOVE


Our inner and outer beauty


Always




xo

Kathleen Naomi