FIRSTS... first time that an orchid re-flowered for me (i left it outside and thought it was gone, maybe i watered it once in a blue moon). sometimes being left alone is all you need to bloom again.
this is my birthday month.
have thought a lot about life and death lately.
a few weeks ago a friend died that Todd and I met in Puerto Vallarta - Jerry, a talented artist, singer, composer, musician from around the small Illinois town that I grew up in. we only met him because we live in PV, and he and his wife love vacationing here - maybe they saw us on House Hunters, don't remember for sure how they found us. think he felt comfortable reaching out to me because he could relate to my character Larleen - the real me may seem standoffish or stuck up, really i'm just sometimes shy and an introvert - but Larleen, that girl is down to earth and brash, never shy to say what's on her hillbilly mind. never would have met him had we stayed in Chicago. he was a bigger than life personality who's never met a stranger and lived life to the fullest.
later that same week my greyhound Asha passed away. my eyes water at the thought of her. sometimes i feel panicky that she's not here. i know she's here in spirit, that she's a part of me now - i felt her soul combine with mine when she left. she can run free and joyfully be her goofy self again, next to our boy Kai. she can lick his ears again. i still miss touching her bunny soft white fur, seeing her beautiful eyes, and feeling her loving energy in our home.
last night my brother-in-laws mother died. i didn't know her well and i'm sad for my sis and brother-in-law and all the family that will miss her.
life and death
it happens to us all - the birds and the bees,
it's not something to fear.
it's the experience.
accept it, embrace it.
i choose to accept it and live life to its fullest while i'm here.
to follow those hunches from my guides, from my spirit, whatever you want to name it.
be a good person.
be EVERYTHING that i can be while i'm here-serving my unique purpose.
and remember to laugh.
to focus on what makes me happy.
how about you